D,
I look at the funeral program and I am still in shock and disbelief. I wish this was a dream. I reminisce on times past, our childhood, teenage years and the short period of adulthood we shared. How am I going to make it without you?
Unfortunately, your passing has had a negative impact on my view of relationships. It feels so hopeless sometimes. Looking back, you paved the way for me, so I will try harder in my relationships, the thing is though you always, always, looked out for your little sister, this became my expectation in all relationships. I truly cannot imagine life without you in it. Just wish I had shown more love and appreciation towards you. Please forgive me.
Everyday we should tell our loved ones unreservedly how much we love or care about them. You did that and impacted everyone you met. May God grant me the strength to carry on. May he give me the peace which passes all understanding.