Diary – September 6th, 2011

Back in Canada, it seems so weird that life around me goes on as if you did not ever exist. Tears stream down my face and my heart feels like it is breaking. Yet, I have to press on for the sake of my family. It really hurt to leave my Dad weeping uncontrollably at the airport. It took much inner strength to leave him. Oh God please grant some solution. While there I was frustrated and felt feelings of guilt especially since I am the only remaining child that my parents have together. The distance is just too much and too painful.

Please come back! I am so sorry we drifted apart, so many regrets. I spoke with you the Friday before, wish I had spoken to you longer. Not sure I can survive this. It just hurts too much!

I feel as if I could just run away from it all. There will have to be some changes in my life. God please sustain me as an employee, wife, mother and friend.