At times I do not feel I can make it. I wish I could just remain in bed and shut out the world. At times I wish I could join him. Sometimes I feel as if I have.
He did so much for me from the time we were children. He was my protector, my playmate, confidante, sister, partner in crime, counsellor, friend, ambassador, informant, advisor and so much more. The fact is that he was all these things to many, but when you were in his presence, you were all that mattered.
He was a man of substance, the one who could be called on at anytime. He knew so much about everything and was always willing to share. There is such a void, one unlike any other. I am forever changed. Everyone seems to expect you to brush it off. I cant! I need some reprieve! I am still expected to do, serve, love and care for. Father, I need someone on whom I can depend. The only one who has constantly been there is you. Thank you!
“One thing have I desired of the Lord, that will I seek, that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the Lord and to inquire in His temple…Psalm 27:4